Sunday, April 8, 2012 12:54 AM
Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera. Maaf sebab dah jarang update blog peribadi saya ini. Tumpuan dan fokus asyik diberikan dekat blog lagi satu sampai tak perasan yang blog nih tak update.
Bukan tak sayang, bukannya lupa. Maafkan hamba, hamba tak sempurna.
As you all know, I have completed my journey in UiTM Lendu, Melaka as a TESL foundation student, Alhamdulillah. Next up? The degree programme, Insya-Allah. Who knows which University I might be into. And who knows if I still even have the chance to further my study somewhere, you know what they say, it all comes back to Him (pointing upwards). I still have Medsi test to go through but we will catch on that one later. Somehow I still think that I will be going back to Lendu after this for another semester. Rubbish, I know.
1 year is just a blink of an eye, trust me. You won't even realize until it is over. You're a freshie in some place and then the next thing you know, you're bidding everyone goodbye whom you've had gone through a lot together. I didn't cry on my last day in Lendu. Not even a tear. Well at least not in front of my friends. And I still remember as I was packing my last box into my car, a group of friends came hurdling and hugged me so tightly. Some of them were crying. I joked to cheer them up and say "Don't cry you idiot. That's why they invented Facebook and Twitter." Honestly, I didn't really knew why I said that to them. It is just my instantaneous response whenever I saw someone crying or sad; I joke to cheer them up. I'm a joker.
Neng the funny fat girl with her stupid gag.
And as I was driving past Tun Kudu, there came a strange feeling creeping through my heart. I saw Dewan Temenggung and just like that, my tears came down like it was Niagara Falls on a stormy day. I sobbed hard as I passed Tun Fatimah, where it all started; I saw a glance of the lake which hold such undeniably great memories specially during the first semester. It's all coming back to me, the laughter, the memories, I just realize I'll never get the chance to see them again. To hell with Facebook; screw you Twitter, the technology shall never make it the same as it were; the laughter and the joy. I bid my last farewell to Lendu and as I drive pass the guard-post, I am no longer a Lendu student. I am just me. The girl with dreams big as the moon and high as the stars.
Why is everything move so fast? So fast I did not even realize they past me by.
And my sister just got married to the love of her life. I pledge my honor to be her bridesmaid on her wedding day and whoa can you believe that! I have a brother in law! And his name is Karim, well I call him Abang Karim. GOD, I HAVE A BROTHER. THERE'S ANOTHER GUY IN MY HOUSE. I don't know whether I'm being emotional or over-dramatic but I just realize the fact that my sister is married! And in a couple of years I will become an aunt, and ibu and abah will be having a joyous time playing with their grandchildren. THEY'RE BECOMING ATOK AND WAN FOR FUCK SAKE! AAAAAAA! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD! Hell, time is ticking my life away faster than the sound of my own heartbeat! What am I doing? I'm 19 for fuck sake. Next year I'll be fucking 20! I've lost my 'one' next year and writing all of this down makes me feel so uncomfortable and uneasy! Time, will you slow the fuck down please! Let me take a deep breath and process all of these information one by one!
Here have some picture.
HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO CALM DOWN!
Anyway, she looked gorgeous on that day. Seriously. Congratulations, newlyweds. May Allah bless their marriage forever and always.